As the third month of 3rd semester almost comes to an end, a hollow feeling begins to sink in. As my life tends to become limited, as if being compacted by a trash crusher I can almost compare it to a monastery cut off from civilization, the occupants of which ~like me~ fear to go out into the real world. It’s not like there is nothing to do out here. Rather there is so much I am supposed to do, that there is very little time for things I want to. More so, I have also forgotten things I wanted to do. Hmm. I am confused.
I vividly remember the last time this happened. I lost my teenage in the mad race called competitive exams and by the time I realized it, I was already out of my teenage. Even to this day, I have to correct mother when she blames my “teen”age for my clumsiness. I remind her of my age, and in the process, get rudely reminded of it myself. Will my history repeat itself, is the question I would like to ask myself. Seriously, I’m very tensed when mother calls me every time reminding me about my end-semester which are supposedly after a month later. It’s not about fear of exams, but about how to live up to the expectations of my parents at home.
While attending the lectures in college, I realized some things. In three years time I will be 22. And, as I go on to join the corporate world, straight jacketed in formals, working longer and harder to outperform, to move up the invisible corporate ladder, leaving very little time for myself. Maybe then I will ask this same question to myself again. Am I losing out on something? Here and now. Four wholesome youthful years of my life, are they expendable?
The Sensex is soaring to greater heights everyday and Need for Speed Hot pursuit is going to be reinvented on November 16. With so many exciting things happening around the world, I don’t think I need to go out and make an effort to make news for the time being. So I think I’ll just post this and go to sleep.
1 comments:
with the every move of clock,,d time is rolling.And with that we all are getting closer to be in face to face with the real world realities,,which exactly is doing nothing but to confuse us whether to slog hard to secure our future or to enjoy this very moment,,with very few of the guys knowing the way to manage a balance.Working hard may definitely lead us to a life full of prosperity and security..but GOD never guarantees,,on the other hand we already have our childhood n teenage in the backdrop where we daydreamed(at that time that seemed to be pretty much happening!!) but that all got spoiled due to this rigorous n murdorous catrace..So in that regard if you are confused mate you are still in your senses.Everone else has been through this sometimes or the other...those win who sneaks out of the..Or else 10 years from now you will be sitting at a black couch(that "balck couch" is the result of all the good english movies i have watched"),,eating fish curry tasty,delicious and specially made by your wife(well that depends..you can make it too!!!) and thinking "have i done justice to my life??"
buddy,,THE confusion CONTINUES forever!!!!
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